It will never be the same again I’m forever changed.

I’ve realized that being told that you’re beautiful and sexy feels good but the problem is that it fades, you are not that forever. The problem is that looks get you so far. So yes I would love to be called these things but at the same time I’m glad that I don’t have to worry about my future and depend on a man or my looks for it.

And the sad thing is that bcuz of all these I guys, I have trust issues.

// I hate lovers that are liars that lie to me//

I feel trapped here all alone trying to get on on my own. I tell myself be happy I tell myself move on, forget and sometimes it works but sometimes it doesn’t and frankly right now I just want to run away. I pray to God to set me free but for some reason God keeps me here instead. I talk to God to try and understand why but God doesn’t talk back. There is no man for me to love no man for me to trust. I’m sick of all these lies and that’s why I’m giving up. My favorite part about my day is getting to work and honestly if I couldn’t do that I don’t really know how I would keep going. #inmyhead

I’m still upset it’s bad

// Rhyme Time //

My bodies shaking, my head is aching, you said that I was breath taking, I miss when we were always baking but I guess you were faking, you were always only there for the taking and now my heart is breaking and now here I am just waiting for the great awakening.

// Dear stupid//

So you like buying luxurious things but you’re not gonna have a job that makes money for those things??

Good luck with that, hope your credit debt isn’t too high but hey you’ll be helping ppl awesome.

// Dear Friend w/o benies//

Just you wait and see when I shine I’m gonna be better than the best. I have big plans for my future. So when you’re married, happily in love to sum hoe, being a counselor and shit, ill be a business woman w/ my Ferrari Enzo maybe married maybe not, making more money than you could ever imagine. Ill be the baddest bitch you’ve ever seen.
Don’t worry baby you’ll see me drive buy or hear of me in the paper or on the news. Ill be changing the world you’ll just be changing ppl. And then ill laugh at the thought that I wanted to be with you, that I actually thought that you were someone I’d want to love. Ya we may still be friends or maybe we won’t but when we see each other in the way future just remember what you could’ve had, see what a successful, powerful, and happy business woman I really am!